I've got a lot on my mind tonight, so this will be a big rant on different things.
It still amazes me how you can know some people all your life, but STILL not really know them at all. Those who you see as your friends can turn and stab you in the back in an instant.
When it comes down to it, you can always tell those who are true to you.
I'm still sick of people who try to make themselves out to be more then what they really are. Especially when there are people around who know the truth.
My dad always told me "Be yourself. If people don't like you for who you are, then they are not worth your time and effort." That has been the best advise I have ever been given, and one that I tend to stick to. It's also the most truthful thing that can apply to life.
It also surprised me to learn how seperated I am from most of my friends. I love them dearly, but I've just grown away from them. What I once found "fun", I now find quite boring. I've developed my own likes, dislikes, hobbies, and interests. It is all part of growing up.
Every day that I learn more about life, and the attitudes of those around me, the more I want to escape. So many people wonder why I retreat to my little place on the web. Well maybe its to escape the torture of reality. To find some kind of peace in all this insanity.
Life is hard, facing it front on is harder. Getting past all the obsticals is the hardest. I've learned to accept them and try to get through whatever life throws at me. I usually try the hard way first, I just can't see life as being simple.
Anyway, my head is pounding. I need sleep. I'll continue this tomorrow.
