Well, Christmas came and went. Then the new year came and went. Now I'm here wondering where time has gone? My children continue to grow and learn and challenge me in ways that are just amazing. Entering into parenthood truly is a new chapter in life. I've learned more about myself and my life and the life around me more now that I am a mother.
The sacrifices you make when you are a parent never end. I now feel for my parents for the sacrifices they made for our family. I now have two precious lives I have to protect. To teach them the best that I can so when they grow up, they can make the best decisions for themselves.
Its funny how you feel so selfish sometimes in the decisions you make in order to keep your family together. For me though, it's not just me I have to think about. I have my two daughters, my boyfriend and then me I think about. I still seem to put my life last, my girls are first then my boyfriend. My family is my life, so I have to make sure that what I do and say are all for the benefit of my family.
All this has come from the fact that when your younger or single or have no responsibilities (having children), life is simple. You do what you want, when you want. Then if you add a couple of innocent lives into the mix, where these lives depend on you to get through every minute of the day, things are no longer simple. You can't do what you want, when you want. That is the hardest struggle I have found in myself and in my relationship.